| Mood: Meh...
Selfish, depressed, inconsiderate, stupid, forgetful, so much more.
Things brought to my attention over the past few months. Eh....fighting
doesn't help. Not saying anything doesn't either. Can't win.
Going to be working at Kenshuma in a couple months.. Gotta get a new
computer. Possible Mac. Maybe not. Don't know. I should be excited over
a $30/hour job...can't be right now though. Too much to think about....
I'm sorry.
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| He almost left me....
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| Mood: Bored. 
So I work at Express in the Northridge mall now. Yay for discounts!
I guess it's pretty cool. On Sunday at 8 freakin AM I have to go in
there...dress up like..how did they say it.."Like you're going to the
MTV Awards" and bring an article of clothing that is my favorite. Also
bring stuff to donate to the Hurricane Fund. Hmm...not too thrilled
about that. I haven't dressed up in SO FREAKING LONG! Driving in heels
is a bitch too. Gah! I also have to convert my wardrobe into Express
cause we can't wear anything BUT Express there. Meh. Oh well. Charlie's
been awesome about it too. He's helping me buy clothes and everything.
He's a really big help when I'm trying stuff on...he goes and gets
other sizes and he helps me pick out stuff too! I LOVE YOU!
Things to do:
- Get a manicure (Image is everything there...)
- Get hair cut and colored.
- Need a dress...(O...m...g...)
- Need new heels.
- Still gotta get my clothes from Express. Hah!
- Study the damn rules and codes.
Today's our 6 month anniversary too! Yayyy!  Too bad he has
school from 6-11 and wont be back til like..12. T_T That's ok. Any time
with him is better than no time at all! I think I'm gonna go see if I
have any dresses for this damn thing...
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| Current Mood: Heartbroken
I love him so much I'm going to bust...
What is love anyway? I feel it, yet I don't know what it is. It's
like...unexplainable. It shouldn't be if you feel it right? I've talked
about it...but I'm still lost. It's been said that love is just a
word. You have to compare it to something else to make it seem
sensible. I never thought it was like that until last night. I always
tell him "I love you" and he never seems to say it back. I always
thought it was just a one sided relationship. I don't know.
What is my definition of love?
-It's when you can't stop thinking of that person no matter what you do.
-You'd do anything for them. Even die for them.
-When you lie next to each other you want time to stop just so you wouldn't have to leave each other.
-When he/she holds your hand or touches you, you get goosebumps and butterflies in your stomach.
-When you kiss the world around you stops and he/she's the only one that matters.
-When you hold/hug each other you never want to let go.
-You feel like you're never going to see them again when they leave for school/work and it makes you crazy.
-Their scent drives you insane and is the only scent you want to smell.
-The amount of care and compassion you have for that one person
is so incredibly large, that there is never enough time or energy to
express it.
Yeah..that's what love is to me. That's what I mean when I say "I love you." It's a nice little word to sum up everything I feel. I do mean it...everything in that list is how I feel about you. Charlie...I think I have fallen in love with you. I love you.
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| Hahahahaha..."Anger Revving." - Me and Panda
Aye. Driving for long amounts of time gets tiring.
Got angry today...*Sigh* Didn't mean to. I'm sorry guys. I just freaked out when I didn't know what was going on....=[
Weird mood at the moment I suppose. Charlie got his car, which was the
main objective of the night, so I guess it wasn't a total loss. I don't
even know why I'm writing in this. No point. Nothing to say. My mind is
just all over the place right now and I think I'm getting sick.
Yayyyyyyyyy. Tired of talking, tired of typing, tired of everything
right now. Gonna sleep. Good night.
P.S. GRATS ALLYSON! I'm so happy for you. I love the picture of your baby. She's so cute. Best of luck to you.
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